- Part 4
- July 22nd, 2010
I have 3 certainties in life.
1.) People is wonderful things.
People has created lovely arts and adorable crafts. People hug and people cry and that is fantastic. People help one another and people love one another so strongly as to sacrifice their lives for people they will never meet.
People has crossed massive seas and existed in a space which is for all intents and purposes nowhere at all. Up there as down here there is but one constant:
People is all there is to it.
When people meet people, people is all that exists. People want to know everything about people and tell everything about people because of this need to learn and make their own. When you know of someone's Tragic Backstory you own them. They exist in your head. Of course they are nothing similar in real life to what is in your head but awareness of this is part and parcel of owning human ignorance, which as we have discussed my dear little baby is as rare as it is vital.
When you take and own someone even in a limited capacity it is customary and fair to return it. Similarly, it is polite to offer yourself first and then take if your bid succeeds. Owning and being owned are the same. This proximity to people allows people slight amounts of ownership and after all, if someone takes all of you, even if you get none of them you shall become vital to them and the you that is in them will own them completely. And when it is reciprocated - shared ownership of owners - that is the most beautiful thing of all.
Because people want to own and understand they give, as gestures of good faith in the hope of a return from someone who notices their virtue. People give their entire bodies out of Love, the desire to know and own that extends to protecting with their own lives what is precious. What they cannot own while dead will at least be owned.
People smile at you at the grocery store and people smile at you from the Moon and it is the same smile, the smile that says "Hey! People! People is lovely! I want people to be in my life!"
And yet the more insightful realize how unwise that desire may be.
2.) People is scum.
When you want to make something your own as all people does to all the world you might take a roundabout route. If you cannot own someone in your head as you do when people is beautiful then you desire to force them inside your head by removing them from outside your head.
People is disgusting. People is going to lie and cheat and steal and blame and berate and hurt people probably until all people is finally exterminated like the trash we secretly all is. We deserve to die and only through our deaths shall the Earth, one of my favorites of God's creations, potentially ever recover from the plague of people God wrought upon in for God-knows-what sin.
People does not matter but people insist, again due to the human desire to at least if nothing else claim ownership of all, that people matter. This is a falsehood. To murder people is a kindness because the drive to own is so insatiable as to make life unbearably insated. That is why there arises a desperation to own that will make people do what they would never forgive in a third party, to rape or to harm or to kill or or to steal or to hate. And always they justify it.
People will watch people kill people and do nothing. This is not a minority. Almost all people will do this. All people will be in a state of mind to do this most of the time, some all of the time.
People don't want to do anything for people because people is too much work. The logic is, for the sake of ease, people should just let people own them but no people is willing to go to the work of giving themselves to people without assurance that they will be taken and get something in return. No one wants to give something without reciprocation because people is selfish. I know, I hate admitting Ayn Rand was kind of right too.
But Ayn Rand was wrong because the end is not to own everything. The thing about the end is, the end is whatever you want it to be. That most people want to own and consume and eat and rend and destroy and observe and take everything is not my problem. That as we discussed this desire can never be satisfied is however a pressing issue that it is best to simply accept because no solution has yet presented itself.
Make your end goal yours however, and you shall avoid the pitfalls of your inherent scummy nature. The stench of your humanity will become bearable when you acknowledge it. Mister Rogers believed he had flaws, though few agreed. Mister Rogers seemed so perfect because he owned his flaws and compensated for them and did not make his end to own but to be as close to perfect as he could for as long as possible. Think. Mister Rogers ought to know better than anyone if he had flaws. And even Christ was tempted.
So the scum is optional or something maybe I suppose possibly in a pinch if you squint.
3.) People is okay I guess.
This drive to consume exists in all of us but the secret is the strength to choose one expression over the other. If you have a friend who cannot lift a book do you call them weak? Perhaps you do. I certainly do. It is Humorous. We Have a Good Laugh over it.
But God made this person weak enough to struggle with this book.
And God is a sculptor with powers beyond any people. God does not imitate, God is actually capable of creating from whole cloth things such as people. People can make humans but God makes people. And I do not know for sure but I doubt Ze has ever made humans that was not people, apart from perhaps Hirself that once.
So did God makes humans good or evil, is the question. Are we the giving and the willingness or the taking and the reluctance?
People justify their misdeeds, because they are scum. The means by which they justify their own otherwise-unforgivable sins is through the massive though forever tragically incomplete knowledge they have of themselves in comparison to the tiny awareness they have of sinners in foreign bodies.
People know themselves to be okay even while they is doing the taking and the killing and the watching and the waiting and the wasting. Know or think.
God may have perhaps not made people good or evil so much as people. God made people people, and people sure is hella people you know. Some people has been remarkably far along on the scale of good though the stench never diappears completely, and some people never even try deodorant. The universal trait is that people is people, and people was made from dust and dirt and slime and mucous and semen and grit and spit and dead bugs curled up under your big toe and gross but people was made, and people is going to be people.
i just like it when people who like being living people fight for the ability of people to be living people. Lots of people like being living people, and they ought to support people being living people. Those who hate being living people because they have seen the disgusting abominations people is always going to be are exempt although to make their end the end is a bit selfish and scummy.
And the teacher solidified his incomplete thought thus.
I do not know if I love them, but I like them alright.
People is okay I guess.